did you visit, or didnt? (:

well whether we are together or not, I guess dun think it really doesnt matter much.
at least for now, we are do know each other better, not through quarrels, but maybe through friendship i guess?

thank God for you.
let's see what will happened in the future ba :)

you know..

actually yesterday i was quite discouraged by your attitude towards us..
even though i didn't show out..but actually i wasn't feeling very happy..
i tried to talk to you..to ask you what's wrong..helped you carry your helmet..but the answer that you gave doesn't convince me that you are really feeling that way that that time..

sometimes when you are like that..it affects the atmostphere too..i mean you wanted yahan and i to chat..but actually we feel uneasy..
both of us were wondering..why are you upset? what is it that you are upset about..i did told you that we are going off from my house at 5pm..and you didn't even tell me that you were waiting at je for 1 hour..until halfway through the journey then you say.
i can see the effort..and i know you wanted to spend more time with me..but sometimes it shouldn't be like that..
cause ytd really made me feel like..why are you giving us that face when we saw you at the platform. we were like 莫名其妙..you understand?

im just telling you how i feel..cause i have to be truthful right?? letting you know about my feelings.. :) i seriously don't feel good yesterday.
i hope that it woun happen anymore..yup..

I do miss her; wendy.



a lot of people see that we will come together, as we have same careers, and lots of things in common.

often I found myself to keep liking and loving you; you are sweet and nice.

and both of us believe in this, one true love.

her spiritual level is same around as me.

but throughout years, she changed, maybe into someone who i dun really understand. (:

for good or for bad I dunno, but she has not believed one true love.

But you and me believed. (:



IT's hard, especially when we got a God that provides, Jesus. (:

sorry dear, kept you worried.

I was tired and kinda emo-ing:
I was emo-ing, because I was wondering,
have you seen my effort about meeting you?
the time I wanted to spent together with you?

is this just a blog? or a blog to share?
if what I want to say can be so easily conveyed to you,
to tell you, to talk to you?

and dun be angry.
I am sorry for my attitude about not being motivated.
currently I am fighting for time, for life, for survival and for Christ.
for lots of stuffs.
It is just simply God traiing for my future, where I need to fight with a strong will, which i dont have for now. lol.
Thank you dear for going out with me together today.
though i always say about your butterfly arms, you have muscles. woo! :D
though it is hairy around your limbs, my has more hairs. :D
though life is tough, we have survived through.
jia you wor. Life is tough. (:

our relationship is tougher, but....
let's seek for our dreams - to be together, in Christ. (:

at times,
I am struggling through:
without you by my side; while there are other gals at my side,
my heart shakes..

just leave you?



that is what I was, used to - selfish me.
... just because you are not by my side. and..
I cant even call you, neither you can
though my phone is fixed.

So I asked God, was it so tough?
all thoughts were coming in:
you are still young?
you cant come out?
your mummy?
your cell leader?
you are free and you need more friends
I will affect your growth?
Can i really provide you?
and have i ever chosen the wrong lady?
have i choose her at the wrong time?
...
...
...
... and it was all planned.
by God.

God - told me it's gonna be hard.
I just reminded, about what happened between wendy and me.
God taught me.
God placed me with another lady who tells me what a lady expects.
God taught me.
God taught me, it's because two likes each other and willing then move on.
Love is not something is cheapskate or just treat it, as it is.
God taught me all.

upon worshipping God and cell group,
I thank God, because there are a lot of moments of my life may have failed,
but,
God never fail me. everyone is feedback that I need to change.
I know my work has no issues, and my attitude shows my character.
So to change my attitude, I have to change my character.

Freely You gave it all for us,
surrender Your Life upon that Cross.
Great is the Love, pour out for all.
This is our God.
Lifted on high from death to life
forever our God is glorified
sovereign king rescued the world.
This is our God.

He taught me, to be humble and be responsible to my patient.
So I learnt. It's a long journey,
and God told me very much about my responsibility.



but after all these,
thank God for you.
and Thank God.
let us reach towards the world as God leads us on. (:
sorry that I cant be at your side.

whatever I felt, I know you felt it too.
I am naggy. *Roar!*



Let's move on, my dear. (:

The spirit in me keep singing this song..
so i decided to type it out.. :)

Every new day, your glory unfolds,
Filling my life, with your treasures untold.
The beauty of holiness, brings worship anew..
My greatest love is you.

Call me deeper, into your place,
The spirit that flows, from the holy place.
Wash over me, cleansing me through,
My greatest love is you. xD

today just got my braces done..
oh my..it was so painful and numb la..haha.
at first it was still alright,
but half a day has gone..
now, i feel the pain coming.. xS
i can't eat with my braces on..
so i had to remove the braces slowly so that it wouln't be that painful.

God! Remove that pain please...
and help me to be able to eat properly.. :)
i need you..

thank you God.
i love you. :D

my dear girl,

dun overwork yourself wor.
otherwise, i will heart break de. (:

there's more to come,
to walk together..
to overcome with God,
with you together.

It's been a long and... quite traumatising for me.
I need God's interventions too.
thank God for you.
thank God, because of God, my families and you..
not only now, but forever. (:
miss you, my gal. (:

I am missing your warmth... (:

我还在寻找
一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼
为我生气 为我闹

幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有 话聊有变化了

小酒窝 长睫毛
是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝 长睫毛
迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到
心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
.
.
.
我永远爱你到老 (:

today's such a busy day for me..

since morning, have been helping her to settle her stuffs..
haven't had my lunch..and im hungry..

half an hour later..
finally done..phew....

then now gotta settle my hope stuffs..
then later rushing for dance practice..
oh man.....
i need God's help man..
i will leave it to God..i will..
just thank God for everything lo..yuppx.. :)

The second day..

The second day you are not in town. Miss you a bit more?
want to hug you?
so many words to say to care for you?
it is a day before I will miss you even more.

Well, that is also a part for me to reflect about my relationship with God.
And today, also think about things around us, our friends and our family.

yup! yup! so many things want to share with you! (:


hopetoseeyousoon!

roar! :D

The first day..
Today, is the first day:

i never received your sms...
never heard from you...
saying good morning...
concerned about my safety...
hearing you saying you are missing me.

wanted to call you, but you are still asleep?
and now..
wanted to call you, but I can't reach you?
Came to think of that, guess I am selfish, very selfish.

how did you managed to have your eyes on me? (:
Also,
today is the first day, I faced fear. I cried in my dreams, because I thought I will leave you early. But thank God, it's a dream - somehow, this dream, I will not take it lightly.
Dreams I have made, some did came true.
Like yesterday, a few months ago, I dreamt that I will be under the storm and reading His word, listening to Him. Yesterday, I kneel at the doorstep, in front of the storm - reading His Word, as lightning striked several times.
A revelation - He has always wanted me to change the world. And that is something I stressed, and I hope I can do. From family, workplace, till patients and impact the world. Building the nations, His temple also means claiming back some terrorities in the world.
That's a lot of things, but I will work it through as God bless me through.

I have a fear that I will leave you early, cos there are so much things I want to do with you. But whatever that comes, I do not think I will fear because I will lose them, even faster. Thank God, though you are not around, He comforted my soul.
I also have feared about your trip, as trips done over night are not safe, especially in malaysia highways. I heard from my dad before that a group of people wanted to hijack his car, but he got rid of them.
But what can I do? helplessly waiting there?

Definitely not - I can pray. God is guiding me through all the time.
Do not feel hopeless, because you can pray also after you saw all these.(:

Do not feel neglected, because my heart is always there for God and you.

Do not feel left out,
because it is a journey that I need to walk - you saw it, you can pray for me. (:

Do not feel weak, because you got all your fans. like how I told you before.
Do not feel restricted about what you cannot do now,
because we have God and forever to do together. (:

Do not need to say miss me lots, cos both know each other's heart. (:
Do constant go back to Christ - we are here because of Him. (:


Praise God, for you, for me, and especially for Jesus Christ. (: