at times,
I am struggling through:
without you by my side; while there are other gals at my side,
my heart shakes..

just leave you?



that is what I was, used to - selfish me.
... just because you are not by my side. and..
I cant even call you, neither you can
though my phone is fixed.

So I asked God, was it so tough?
all thoughts were coming in:
you are still young?
you cant come out?
your mummy?
your cell leader?
you are free and you need more friends
I will affect your growth?
Can i really provide you?
and have i ever chosen the wrong lady?
have i choose her at the wrong time?
...
...
...
... and it was all planned.
by God.

God - told me it's gonna be hard.
I just reminded, about what happened between wendy and me.
God taught me.
God placed me with another lady who tells me what a lady expects.
God taught me.
God taught me, it's because two likes each other and willing then move on.
Love is not something is cheapskate or just treat it, as it is.
God taught me all.

upon worshipping God and cell group,
I thank God, because there are a lot of moments of my life may have failed,
but,
God never fail me. everyone is feedback that I need to change.
I know my work has no issues, and my attitude shows my character.
So to change my attitude, I have to change my character.

Freely You gave it all for us,
surrender Your Life upon that Cross.
Great is the Love, pour out for all.
This is our God.
Lifted on high from death to life
forever our God is glorified
sovereign king rescued the world.
This is our God.

He taught me, to be humble and be responsible to my patient.
So I learnt. It's a long journey,
and God told me very much about my responsibility.



but after all these,
thank God for you.
and Thank God.
let us reach towards the world as God leads us on. (:
sorry that I cant be at your side.

whatever I felt, I know you felt it too.
I am naggy. *Roar!*



Let's move on, my dear. (: