Today, is the first day:
i never received your sms...
never heard from you...
saying good morning...
concerned about my safety...
hearing you saying you are missing me.
wanted to call you, but you are still asleep?
and now..
wanted to call you, but I can't reach you?
Came to think of that, guess I am selfish, very selfish.
how did you managed to have your eyes on me? (:
Also,
today is the first day, I faced fear. I cried in my dreams, because I thought I will leave you early. But thank God, it's a dream - somehow, this dream, I will not take it lightly.
Dreams I have made, some did came true.
Like yesterday, a few months ago, I dreamt that I will be under the storm and reading His word, listening to Him. Yesterday, I kneel at the doorstep, in front of the storm - reading His Word, as lightning striked several times.
A revelation - He has always wanted me to change the world. And that is something I stressed, and I hope I can do. From family, workplace, till patients and impact the world. Building the nations, His temple also means claiming back some terrorities in the world.
That's a lot of things, but I will work it through as God bless me through.
I have a fear that I will leave you early, cos there are so much things I want to do with you. But whatever that comes, I do not think I will fear because I will lose them, even faster. Thank God, though you are not around, He comforted my soul.
I also have feared about your trip, as trips done over night are not safe, especially in malaysia highways. I heard from my dad before that a group of people wanted to hijack his car, but he got rid of them.
But what can I do? helplessly waiting there?
Definitely not - I can pray. God is guiding me through all the time.
Do not feel hopeless, because you can pray also after you saw all these.(:
Do not feel neglected, because my heart is always there for God and you.
Do not feel left out,
because it is a journey that I need to walk - you saw it, you can pray for me. (:
Do not feel weak, because you got all your fans. like how I told you before.
Do not feel restricted about what you cannot do now,
because we have God and forever to do together. (:
Do not need to say miss me lots, cos both know each other's heart. (:
Do constant go back to Christ - we are here because of Him. (:
Praise God, for you, for me, and especially for Jesus Christ. (:
