Random thoughts. (:
wanted to tell you before you left that i really miss you a lot.
but i guess, there are too many guys missing you le, i wont be in the list.
so in the end i just sms you the instant noodles name..

I was missing you, badly. Real bad.

I was wondering ever,
the breakup with you, was it so bad impact into my life?
because i was crying to God, for 2 days within a week.
but i guess, i wasnt the one only.. oh well.

and so it is, ever is.
I will never know how you will feel about - maybe it is a relief for you.
and i dunno.

hearing you again, is a blessing, i guess.
I got a lot of questions to ask, was it true that...

Seth send you home regularly after church?
a lot of questions in mind. woot.
lol, like you - bothered.
am i really torturing myself during the relationship?
no, even though it hurts most of the time, but silent is easy.

am i dunno all the things that is going on in your life?
not really, I have knew Seth sooner or later will be after you, guys too.
there are just a lot of things, i open an eye and close one eye.

the relationship and the love between two of us has eventually diminished, things become different.
you have always asked yourself why is Jimmy this way?
but have you ever asked me?
and have you ever asked 3 persons around me, close to me?
I know you will ask, but will that be a habit?

what did you like - I asked around.

did you know that everyday, I am just trying my best to make you happy, even though i know that things are going from bad to worse?
if you are not a fool, why are you seeing things from your own thinking,
from your perception,
reflect upon your actions?

did I say I cant take it?

will those words hurt you?

i will rather, keep it to myself, than to hurt you because the hurt is real bad - sound torturing, but that is what God has taught me. like how painstakingly Kelly has loved all of you.

I was putting your sensitivity into my life, and i realised both of us looked at things differently.

it reallys saddens me when you dun really ask me for a clear idea what i talked about you to others.
is the image of me, in your sight, so easily moulded by the others?

but after all, I thank God for you.
everytime I hold onto someone's hand to pray, I will never how I foolishly wipe away the perspiration on both of our hands, with our fingers crossed each other's. how i hoped that moment was forever.
everytime, I see you, I really... want to hug you.
may it be just an expression of emotions.
Places in bugis, and "Disappeared" that you found in a bookstore: thank God, because both of us prayed in our hearts.
and I realised, I am so ever ready in a relationship.
I learn to be willing to be break anytime.
my temper I need to control, and communicate with you was part of my greatest blessings.
I know i have sufficient in all, that's why i seek beyond it.

the template is white, because you are really an angel.
yeah, thank God for you. (:


Dear Lord, I seek for Your Holy Intervention be upon Rachel,
that she will grow up as a strong and powerful. Bless her and build up according your will.
Bless her that the taiwan trip she has been a wonderful one.
Commit her well being into your hands, as I believe in You,
in Jesus' most precious name, I seek, ask and pray, Amen. (:

6 more days.