i still miss you.

but i want to let you fly.

it's gonna be the 4th anniversary from the first time we hold our hands.
today, i want to tell you.
i went to bras basah to go art friend to get something.

lots of memories came back.
passing by the toilet in mac that you waited for me.
went to bras basah complex, went to the level that I found you in the midst of levels.
I have never forget that day how panic you are to find that book.
we went to funan, then you think le something at the traffic junction, to go for a very old place, near SMU to look for Disappeared.

passing through the places, and you got me my favourite food: seoul street snack - boneless chicken thigh, with chilli and mayo, but i forget to bring my cash.
thanks for your giving, what i ate is not that nicey chicken, but rather i realised I am eating the love that you have given to me. it is so much from you: your mum only gave you 3 and it's like giving your whole day for me. I thank God for that.

I realised it is a miracle that i can get back this blog, because i have deleted it.
but miraculous, it can be undeleted recently.
when if the blog can be retrieved back, which is impossible, what will be our relationship be?
if I said I did change my heart before, and i still love you, will you come back to me?

the jimmy you know didnt change, just that you didnt really know much about Jimmy.
and the Rachel I know, I want to know her more, understand her more because jimmy, me, has never know much about Rachel. (:

whatever that comes, let's pursue God together, and going through army times with me. (:
I just to cry in your arms....